And if I could tell you anything…
 

I would tell you that love terrifies me to my core

I would tell you that I’m afraid to be held closely
for a moment, I was unsure if I even knew how to love someone in the first place

 

He told me,
that a passionate woman was worth the chaos
But I am sure, that I am not a storm he knew how to prepare for
And his blue eyes were not glaciers I was ready to run into

 

If I could tell you anything,
I would tell you that I’m exhausted,
from juggling more jobs than these hands can hold
when all I really want to do is this right here,
write letter poems to strangers and loved ones
and hope that they hear “me too” tucked within my stanzas

 

Yes, if I could tell you anything
I would tell you that I am more distant than lost ships
and that my lighthouse is 6 hours away
covered in overcast and a red bridge that has arms extended wide
like welcome home signs
I would sit down with you for coffee,

and then first tell you that I drink way too much coffee

Then I would look you in the eye
as easy as that may be and say that….most days
most days, I have a hard time looking at myself in the mirror

I would tell you that you are worthy 
and then fight the internal battle to believe it for myself
I would ask you,
How’s your heart? 

Have you healed from from what last felt like lightning to your gut?
Are you walking wound or walking victory?
I would tell you,
just tell them you think they’re cute
Whoever “they” are for you

I would say, be daring

Let courage be the spine that makes you stand taller

Do not be afraid to stand taller 

Be the woman or the man you would want our little ones to follow footsteps after
If I could tell you anything,
I would say do the things that scare you
Let your dreams be big enough to scare you

 

Run with it, 
if it doesn’t exists then create it
Be you’re own boss 
Own it, every strut and strong shoulder

 

I would tell you yeah, life is tough but so are you 

But then I would whisper that it’s okay to be weak sometimes

It’s okay to put that cape to the side sometimes

 

I would say baby listen…

you’re the kind of magic Frida talked about 

And someday, someone will look at your smile
and see dimples as the gold found on the end of rainbows
I think for far too long we’ve convinced ourselves
that we don’t deserve beautiful things or to be loved well
but there is a God who is pursuing us recklessly every day
despite our fleeting tendencies

It is a wonderful thing isn’t it ?
to know that we can run all we want and he’ll still be there

 

He would tell you:

You’re marvelous 
The kind of beautiful that you can’t even fathom from your human eye
You are every bit of heaven on earth that I could have pulled from stars, milky ways and dust

 

He would tell you, I love you and then he’d say it again,

I L o v e  y o u.

There’s no more need for running please give those tired feet a rest

 

You see these arms?
They are the most secure safety you could ever know

Stay here awhile
Right here

“The LORD replied, “My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.”

Exodus 33:14